contradiction..

as much as i keep ranting about not havin expectation and hope would not lead to pain, i guess i've subconsiously allowed myself to have a tiny bit of hope and expectation..

maybe tt's why i cant find peace in myself.. bah.

the pasture is always greener at the other side and there's a huge forest...


~i'd once find peace and moved on.. yet it had to come back and stir up everything all over again..~