hey ppl! im back.. anyway.. the children's choir in church today went quite well i suppose.. hee.. got compliments from the congregation and well.. it was ok.. no pic yet.. sorry for the waitin.. which is if there's anyone waitin for the photo..

went to shao mu today.. qing ming festival.. ya.. pray to ancestors.. today.. it was to my grandpa's parents.. my great grandparents.. it was located around bishan area i suppose.. alot of ppl were there.. well.. as a catholic.. i've nvr been to such a place b4.. it's not a temple but the things they sell, incense paper, paper clothes and etc for the dead, makes it very chinese.. hmm.. anyway.. my dad bought 2 big boxes.. which, the contents are clothes, money and necessary items for the dead.. well, there is even a difference of which content is for the guy and gal.. very interestin rite..

b4 tt, we oso went to ntuc to get some fruits and items.. my grandaunt bought some kuay teow and vegetarian food.. there's kopi-o too.. we put and arrange the stuffs we bought on a table and waited for a nun to come over... i think she was to pray and communicate to the dead tt the gifts were for them.. with the incense, prayin and all.. i guess my greatgrandparents should be happy.. went inside the buildin to find their place inside the columbarium.. well... there's alot inside lor.. but all seems very long ago and old.. some very dirty too.. my greatgrandpa's urn was quite clean.. and located at the '6th'level while my greatgrandma's urn was quite dusty and i cant quite rmb where it was located.. we paid the person-in-charge so as to help us clean the urn.. hmm..

anyway.. once all was done.. we packed up the fruits and food and separated it between our family and my grandaunt's family.. thn.. we went off to another place whereby this time, it's our 2nd grandaunt whom we are payin respect to.. we didn get to see her urn as the place was closin for the day.. only manage to burn some incense paper for her..

i think tt this is a very unique experience for me as this is the very first time im doin it.. i think i will be gg to visit my graves and columbarium this yr.. i haven been doin so in the past yrs as im quite afraid of such things.. hmm.. well.. the experience is still very special.. this is such a unique chinese tradition which is almost like the chinese new yr whereby all chinese pay respect to their ancestors.. hmm.. ok... there's sch tml and i guess the results for common test will be out soon.. good luck to all.. and enjoy..


~why will jesus die... w.w.j.d. what will jesus do...~

ONE OF THE CHICKEN IS DEAD!!!
well... haha.. common test is over!! i noe tt my results will be quite bad.. anyway.. yup.. vincent just killed one of his chickens... haha.. meaning... less of one noisy crow in the morning! however.. the other chicken.. seems to be able to noe tt it's partner has been killed.. hmm.. it's lookin and dashin all over the house now searchin for the dead one..

went for kbox on thur wif jinyan, pat, huidong, tuanquan, libei, gimteng, xinyi, peiwen, royston(s05) and charmaine.. it was fun.. first time experience for me.. hehe... went to libei's house b4 tt to watch a vcd.. it was a damn stupid show.. anyway.. there was still bio paper on fri... haha.. we kinda celebrated end of common test quite early...

yesterday after the last paper.. wanted to join joyce and the rest of the hockey gals initially.. however.. i think it's fate la.. met the gang at cck mrt.. lichong, shannon, eddie, edwin, gene, jianwei, liyu.. they're proceedin to malaysia for their trip.. and i guess they're enjoyin themselves right now.. we went for lunch b4 they left and after tt, i left to search for jocelyn's house.. haha.. played wif her dog lilo while they were cookin...

there was physical trg at 4pm in sch.. after which a pitch trg at nie.. i started to run yesterday and ran for 5 rounds.. wif juliet! she's joinin hockey too! haha.. anyway.. couldn do much too.. saw the canoeing j1s trg wif mr ang.. i really miss canoein alot.. haiz... we'll see how in the future lor..

b4 the last paper.. just when i came to sch.. realised tt mengyean, joyce, jocelyn, irene.. etc... huv confirmed tt they'll be runnin for cross-country representin the sch.. hmm... all the best for them! hope tt we'll get to go there and cheer for them!!

well.. tt recent *secret* of mine, i think i'd interpreted the meanin wrongly and im so dumb and feel stupid of it.. haiz... anyway.. it was cip today.. there's photo taken.. not yet uploaded by pat.. so pic will be up soon i guess..

sorry lilyn.. too bad for ur comp.. all the best for ur comin exams.. if dunno ur work can come ask me.. im still ok wif pri sch work.. hee! bye!!


~stop waiting..~

well.. chem paper 2 is over.. still left wif chem paper 1 and bio paper 1.. i went in to the examination hall so confident today.. but i came out.. filled wif depression.. think i might not be able to make it for this test.. haiz... ok.. enough of it..

the whole gang, most, are goin to kota this weekend to the waterfall.. haiz.. as usual, i cant go.. nvm.. hockey camp has been postponed too.. well.. dunno issit good or bad.. cuz we intended to go for biking trip next week.. haiz.. seems like it has to be pushed further next week..

i really hate waitin for reply... and i guess i wun be gettin any reply soon or anytime.. sorry for u guys out there who dunno wat im talkin about.. hee.. it's the *secret*... i think im always so silly lor.. haiz.. put so much hope and in the end.. sadness and emptiness.. ok.. i'll just lived as the day pass.. let things move on on its own.. nth much to blog today.. so.. bye ppl!


~waiting can be happiness yet torturous..~

tml's biology common test and i've yet to complete revising even 2 chapters.. yesterday was drea's bdae and we had a very enjoyable day.. went to novena in the mornin so as to get the bands but nvr attend novena.. thn met the guys at cine.. really all guys ok.. im the odd one as usual.. crystal and abbe already had a plan to keep drea out of our view.. she's accompanied by crystal and grace the whole day at padang for softball thingy.. the rest of us.. well.. 'planned' her a surprise.. not all of us la.. the guys except for abbe all went dotaing and me and abbe went jalan jalan for drea's cake and present! well.. and we bought her a chaco sandal.. all of us shared money.. so ermm.. total of 9 ppl sharing.. hehe.. ermm.. ya.. so many ppl share.. so price abit ya.. hee. ok.. shant make it too obvious cuz drea is too smart.. and if she happens to read my blog.. tt's it.. haha..

we waited for her at funan's swenson's and damn.. the manager attitude sia.. so much for the 'good service' campaign for singapore.. swenson's somemore.. but i like the other manager.. the older one.. he's more attentive and tried to accomodate our needs.. not tt our attitude was bad to them.. come on... we've like spent $195++ in tt place.. abbe lit the candles for 3 times and the candles were damn short went drea arrived.. had a wonderful dinner after tt and we went off to eat the cake.. couldn eat it at swenson's as it was considered outside food.. :p.. when we gathered somewhere near the toilet..cut the cake and eatin on the floor.. we were chased by the security guard... i think he thought we were huvin an illegal gathering.. pls lor.. we dun look like juvenile delinquents ok.. pissed..

from there... we proceeded to padang to enjoy the night and take photos! haha.. took alot sia.. from posin to jumpin.. dorts.. the guys were damn funny lor.. so many actions and poses.. and the E4s.. dorts.. got ready to go home after tt and when we saw tt bread talk was huvin sale.. all buns at $1, we went in.. as most of them are guys.. they were still very hungry and of cuz.. bought a few buns.. went on walkin to the bus-stop searching for 190.. as i went there b4 durin the sports talk at kalang.. i recognised the bus-stop and when we missed the bus.. i gace instructions to run to the next one.. without knowin if it was the real one.. lucky we caught the bus.. if not i'd huv been clobered by the guys for runnin for wrong bus.. worst, wrong stop.. the journey home was tiring.. and stressful for me.. as i was about 2hrs late from the given time to reach home.. when i finally reached, no one was at home.. damn.. ok.. and my feet got injured due to tt stupid slipper.. haiz..

today.. there was children choir practice.. only a few of them turn up due to lack of communications for the parents.. they obviously didn rmb or depended on us to remind them over and over again.. well.. then after tt, went home.. and slept..

initially, i came online to blog so as to tell u guys tt i found the place where i can really focus and take in whatever i studied.. and i end up giving such a long blog.. ok.. ironically.. even though it stinks, i think i can focus best on studies when im in the toilet pang saing... crude as it sounds but it's true.. okok.. star idol showin.. bye!


~trying to study..~

hmm.. vincent is back for the weekend.. i thought i'll huv to wait ard 2 weeks b4 i see him again.. hu noes! not even one week and he's back..the happiest person now is my grandma.. :p.. she'd missed him since he left for ns.. which is about 4 days ago.. anyway.. he got this botak cut im disturbing him of.. haha.. i still haven miss him and his back so fast.. grrr... ok la.. at least there r ppl who r happy..

tried to study again but still not much... aarrgghhh.... anyway.. tml's drea's bdae and we'll be celebratin wif her for dinner! woohoo~ ok.. still dunno wat's the plan for tml mornin.. im thinkin of gg to novena church first to see if i can get the w.w.j.d. band for ppl.. and after tt.. maybe will go sentosa... plans are not confirmed and waitin for gene and lichong to get back to me.. aarrgghh.. hate the waitin.. ok la.. gg to pang sai liao.. bye..


~some trees are fated to be pillars while others are destined to be toilet paper...~ (got this quote from jinyan.. which he got from somewhere else:p)

anyway.. i did a count on the number of ppl i met since 2005.. well.. it was like a new beginning for me in jc and well.. new life.. and i was a path whereby i went through alot.. from camps, canoe, studies and frens.. i met more than 156 ppl from various walks of life! haha.. there's ppl from RACE, pae, jae, canoe, hockey and pjc.. there are oso ppl from church and other source.. well.. even though not all had been able to communicate.. im just glad tt this frens are still there.. i was surprise as i wrote down the list and i am oso very glad tt i've met so many ppl.. i noe tt this number might be small for some ppl but it's quite big for me right now.. i sincerely thank the ppl hu huv been there for me.. u noe hu u r.. im sorry to those whom i've hurt b4 and those whom i could not afford some time wif them.. i noe tt once i graduate from jc.. i'll meet even more ppl per yr.. anyway.. this yr will be a special one for me.. i'll make sure tt it will be..


~sincerity..~

sorry lilyn.. today no photo.. anyway.. i feel damn happy today!! y?? cuz i finally get to play hockey normally.. thks drea and abbe.. i really enjoy the hockey session today.. hee. well.. even though i felt quite inferior of my skills and ability to control the ball, u guys encouraged and taught me alot! haha! yeah... hope tt the next session more ppl can come! i didn noe so many RACE ppl play hockey.. hee!

anyway... i really did enjoy myself today.. had physio in the mornin.. it was expensive.. $24!?! anyway.. ya.. tried to study abit.. but to no avail.. im still damn happy of the hockey session just now.. drea had a game with vjc in the afternoon and she could still survive the session we had.. endurance damn good! haha.. i really hope tt im not being left out and i really wanna prove tt i can do it..

im sorry ppl.. i think im feelin worst nowadays.. my self-confidence is gradually losin and i dunno how to find it back.. as much as i hate to put up false front, i cant find myself.. im still seekin ok. certain values and principles i still hold on.. and i'll try my best in search of me..

im still waitin for reply.. but i dun think i'll get it.. im always into it and realise im a fool of it.. i always tell myself not to let history repeat itself but it always do.. haiz.. anyway.. im gonna take a rest now.. bye..


~still searching.. and waiting..~

ok..another pic for my lil cousin.. haha.. lilyn this one is for you!! anyway.. this pic was taken about one yr ago.. when i dun even noe tt it was taken.. :p.. anyway.. it was taken during my first camp.. deyi sec level camp.. :).. met all the new ppl there and our friendship has still maintain till today.. i think i look weird in the pic.. :p.. but the action we did is the very norm one i guess.. a typical must one pose for all pic.. okok..

send vincent off for ns tis mornin and well.. hope he'll be able to last there.. haha.. im already plannin what to do wif his properties at home..muahaha!!! huv to study soon.. common test continuation next week..

the stupid thing which i did yesterday.. well.. didn get a reply.. so i guess it was really dumb of me.. :p..

there was a bbq yesterday at wei teng's house for pae 05s06.. it was fun.. watched the maid.. but i went there late and only stayed for 1hr or so thn left.. hockey trg was about the same yesterday.. but.. i feel sad.. as i noe i might not playin for the inter-schools.. which means.. sittin on the bench.. :p.. should be glad they did not sack me la... just learn whatever i can and do whatever i can..

patricia's in thailand now i suppose.. hope she enjoy her trip and take many pic so can share wif us her experience!! bless you pat!!!

anyway.. im off now... seeya!


~enjoy like there's no tomorrow..~

haha! under the pressure of my lil cousin.. here i am.. updatin my blog.. she saes tt got pic makes my blog more interestin.. but the prob is tt it takes damn long for the photo to be uploaded..

anyway this is a pic we took on sat after the campfire for the sec 1 orientation camp.. can see alot of them in green.. cuz they just came back from a camp in kota.. haha.. anyway.. the campfire was not bad... in the hall.. no real campfire due to weather but it was still considered successful for the day! like alvin said, it was a bomb! haha.. it's so nice to see so many alumni goin back to aes but i think the number might reduce next yr for the '88 and '87 batch of ppl..

it's holiday now and im broke.. but lucky.. i'll be studyin most of my time so wun need to spend so much.. vincent is goin of for his ns tml.. he'll be in the same camp as another ex-assumptionite, alex.. maybe i'll intro them tml if i see alex..

i did sth crazy just now.. abit retarded and stupid oso..but i shall keep it a *secret*.. anyway.. had extra lessons wif tanbp today.. he dragged pass the actual time but no one minds! hehe.. extra who dun wan.. anyway.. after tt, me and joyce took cab to nie pitch for trg... i feel damn sad to think tt i might no be playin for the competition.. it's damn sad to sit on bench.. well.. nvm.. life still goes on and i'll get to play once my leg heals..

so long for now.. need to get some slp or it'll be damn tiring tml.. nites everyone.. and to tt someone too!!


~life still goes on no matter what..~

well.. same openin.. too long nvr blog..
have been goin through some douldrums the past few days.. well.. maths common test is over for now! yeah! and it's holidays now!! wee~~ anyway.. im goin to chiong and study for my two sci durin this holiday so as to get a better result.. haha..

just came back from my sch's cross-country.. haha.. i nvr run.. cuz knee still pain.. scare later twist when i run on the uneven road.. :p.. haha.. was so high cheerin for the hockey ppl and some other frens of mine.. hee.. something funny happened too! haha.. keep it a *secret*.. it's funny, cute and sweet la.. haha.. i have alot secrets mah.. hehe...

im goin for the sec 1 orientation camp tml and i'll just make sure i'll find back that old joanna who's hyper, active and cheerful!! and crazy too!! wahaha... just hope tt i wun lose my voice or cannot go kbox durin holiday le.. haha.. okok.. my cousin waitin for me to read this update so.. farawel!!


~searching for the old me..~

i wanted to post this mornin.. but after i type.. no connections.. and i had to go out already.. haiz.. now.. cant re-type everything again... sian.. ok.. some re-cap..

THERE'S NO TEAR IN MY KNEE!!!!
but there's still pain in it.. aarrgghhh.... ok.. the week has passed so swiftly again.. last week's children choir was as nice as b4.. it's very sweet!! im so happy to be wif my kids! haha! it's sch tml again.. sian.. common test comin up this week.. and it's holiday! yeah.. pathetic. one week only. there was a leadership workshop yesterday at aes.. it was ok la.. the rest of the gang went kota on fri.. got trg..think some back yesterday.. gene, drea, cry, lichong, jian wei... all of them there except me.. haiz.. well.. lucky i was made up by gg m'sia wif my family last night to johor for dinner.. it was delicious!! haha.. and very filling..had a big feast today too!! went to church in ang mo kio.. met my aunts there.. went for career fair yesterday with 2 of my cousins of whom i had only started contactin after new yr this yr.. went and saw many faces..

im so sick and tired of studyin.. just hope tt everything will pass soon.. but i'll work hard to get at least triple Bs for my result.. if only i get triple As.. haha.. i'll work hard.. but dunno how to start.. im still quite slack now.. haiz.. think this holiday will be very busy for me.. but.. i noe tt i'll like it no matter wat.. it's still a break.. hopin to go for 2 star kayakin.. but dun think got the slot.. anyway.. gtg for now.. seeya..

~w.w.j.d - what will jesus do.~