it's frustrating!! with the condition of my leg.. i cant do anything vigorous at all.. i went for trg today but could only do some basic stuff.. i noe the importance of it.. but thn i really wanna do sth more challengin which i can run.. but I CANT RUN!!! aim. whack. hit. tt's all i can do.. furthest run abit only.. imagine.. i was the fastest in shuttle run last yr.. and my 100m record was 13+sec.. now.. i cant even bend or straighten my knees.. dun even sae aiming for these records.. aarrgghhh!!! i really wan ppl to see the best side of me.. not when im like shit.. it's really very pissed off.. now i go trg.. i cant do much while others are improving on their footwork.. i feel damn down when im like being cast aside.. i dun wan this to happen to me too but it already has occurred.. my knee is already injured and i'll nvr noe when it'll fully recovered.. i wan a position in the team too.. but can i.. i dunno.. im tryin to study too.. im tryin ppl.. i really do.. haiz.. why is this happenin to me.. if i did not injured myself on the 3rd trg.. i would be runnin and jumpin all about.. i used to be a happy, bouncy and jumpy joanna.. now.. im a sad, inflated and grumpy joanna.. i miss the old me.. haiz.. tell me where she is.. can i kill the joanna now.. grrr...

im really sorry for this post if it has affected u badly.. the posts nowadays are rather negative and pessimistic but i really need a place to let off the steam... now.. i cry easily when im alone and thoughts always flows in very quickly especially when im walkin home alone.. anyway.. sch nowadays is really tirin and stress.. im tryin to catch up as much as possible.. haiz..

tml's valentine's day and it'll be a long day for me.. and a lonely one too.. but lucky lesson ends at 6pm.. so dun need see those couples on the streets.. hmmm... well.. just thoughts.. to all the couples.. wish u ppl a very wonderful day ahead tml and enjoy.. for those who are singles like me.. well.. just enjoy the singlehood and the friends ard u.. thk them for being with u and all the best to everyone.. nites..


~thinking of positive thoughts might make you feel better sometimes.. not all though..~