good mornin to all! today is the last day of 2005! well.. for the past few days.. had been tryin to do some work..manage to complete some of the chem.. hee.. tried to change the template but my connection suddenly d/c.. shit lor... now abit lazy to link ppl.. hehe..

yesterday.. it was the canoeing team's chalet at pasir ris.. oh my goodness! it was kinda pathetic la.. only 8 turn up.. thn had lunch at BK.. after tt.. 5 went to play x-box for few hours and the other 3 went to gossip.. haha.. me siying and meng yean!! haha.. had fun gossipin.. hee.. ard 7 plus.. 5 more joined us.. the seniors this time.. haha.. then.. junjie joined us even later.. so total got 14 ppl at the chalet!! lol.. how many stayin?? only 8!! okok.. damn funny la.. played a few rounds of bridge and slack ard till 10 thn went home.. the journey home takes ard 1hr plus.. on the mrt.. a guy came into the mrt and he somehow looks familiar.. he has a build of either a canoeist or dragon boater and i think he finds us familiar too!! it was damn funny lor.. when he was alightin.. he actually come to our cabin from the other cabin just to make sure tt he noes us.. haha.. the situation was so weird and funny lor.. by the way he's our first canoeing captain..

however.. it was so suay lor.. reached cck ard 11 plus.. and.. no more bus liao.. haiz.. had to take cab home.. and there was extra charge lor.. make my heart pump so fast.. whenever the meter jumps.. my heart jumps too!

okok.. now.. let me do a re-cap of wat i've done this yr..

hmm...

in the beginnin of the yr.. well.. it was all fun becuz it's the first three mths period.. hee.. met great ppl in my og and my pae ct class.. s06! met fantastic ppl there and really enjoyed tt period of time.. pon sch just to go for camps!! haha.. tt was my favourite part.. met even more fantastic and fun ppl while doin camps and it brought the few of us.. gene drea lichong jianwei crystal shannon me and a few more, closer and noe each other better... our friendship is really all thks to RACE.. hee.. i've ventured on to sth new too.. joinin canoeing.. it's the best part of my life really..

first three mths over and it's time to start real study.. i think i was too commited in canoein tt i've not been doin well in my studies.. not tt i blame canoein for tt.. but i blame myself for not workin harder.. i did studied but i think i was not puttin much more effort to it tt's y i had to re-exam.. hee.. but anyway.. i managed to pass it and im promoted.. however.. it was durin this period in canoein tt i really noe more of myself.. i realised how determine i am and my endurance level... canoein really taught me alot.. made real good frens.. mengyean and siying.. went for my first ever competition wif meng yean and the experience was wonderful..our 'go, 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10..' really scared ppl off.. haha.. even now we've split up and she's wif irene.. i wish her all the best in this comin yr that she'll perform even better.. i noe she can do it.. and jia yous and more jia yous..

in this whole yr.. im really happy and proud to be in canoein..knowin many more great frens and noe more of myself.. went for camp and met new ppl once again and to all camp-instructors, u guys are great!! we rock!!! when canoein was meetin the tide to be closed down.. and my dad forbided me to go for trgs.. i think i've traded canoein for camps.. i dun regret my choice but it's sth which i'll reflect on.. i enjoy doin camps as much as canoein but.. i've made my choice.. hee..

for my church.. im really great to be able to serve the 10.30am choir every sunday with my flute.. even though i've to return the flute back to the sch.. i'll try to continue my service in other ways.. i am also very happy tt a children's choir has finally set up!! haha.. even though on our debut, there were less than 20 kids.. but the response was good.. i cant wait for the next mass to come.. the kids.. they are so simple and blessed.. hee.. it's wonderful to be a child.. haha.. the next mass will be on the 15th jan and hopefully more children and youths will turn up..

i've been thinkin alot and reflectin of what i've been doin in this whole yr and it comes to a point when i want to change certain ways i do things and the way i make my choices.. anyway till now.. a very HAPPY NEW YEAR to all.. and may u be wif ur loved ones happily together..


~it's the time when you really reflect and think of what you have been doing..~

hihi to all.. haven been bloggin haha.. anyway.. u must be wonderin where i went rite.. okok.. on xmas day itself.. had a family gatherin.. haha.. got bbq.. i set up the fire damn nice lor.. hehe.. it was very interestin la.. got 2 presents.. thn.. ard 11+pm.. send vincent to the airport..

haha.. he went to beijing... and i asked him to buy jackets for me.. haha.. hopefully he'll get it la.. anyway.. at the airport.. after sendin him.. we saw 2 guys fightin.. haha.. oh my goodness.. we were wonderin where the hell was the police lor.. thn my dad so kaypo la.. he went near them and was watchin beside them quarrelin.. the scene was so funny lor.. my dad.. so near to them.. just stood by and watch.. goodness.. i think it was sth about not enough taxi fare or sth.. so funny lor..

on mon.. wanted to study at ngee ann wif gene at first.. but end up gg to queensway wif lichong and changhong.. they wanna buy clothes lor.. after tt.. had lunch at the market there.. the so-called usual hang out for pjc canoeist after trg.. haha.. used to be la.. then went to bugis to get more stuff.. haiyo.. this two ah.. really can compete wif gals lor i tell u.. haha..

then.. came the big day!! it was kinda pathetic in the mornin cuz 3 of us.. me drea and crystal.. went to sun-tan in sentosa.. haha.. tt stupid gene la.. suggested it but couldn make it cuz he wanna study.. couldn get other instructors too.. haiz.. tan for like few hours.. then left for lunch at harbour front.. lucky we left early cuz it started to rain heavily..
once we reached drea's place.. was ard 4 plus lor..expected ppl to come by 5pm.. but then.. as typical singaporean.. they came late.. dorts.. was expectin more than 20 ppl.. but less than tt came.. no matter wat.. it was still as enjoyable.. i received a very good news too!! i passed my re-exams!! woohoo!! i was shoutin for joy in the room lor.. and i think some instructors might think tt im crazy or sth.. haha.. sorry ah guys.. heehee..
we played games.. ate.. chill out and had gift exchange.. it was damn funny la.. cuz in the end.. i was like gettin back my own present lor.. haha.. abbe then sang a few songs wif the guitar and it was all so perfect until tt stupid guard who came in and said:'ok.. tt's all.. start clearin up now..' and he turn on all the lights.. so anti atmosphere lor.. haiz.. then.. everyone started to clear the stuff and as instructors.. we did it in no time.. haha.. used to it le ma.. wahaha.. had a group photo taken by the guard after the clear up and it was home time..

it was a really great day and thank you to all who made it so successful.. and much more thanks to andrea.. thks for the present.. it's very sweet.. hee.. thks for everything gal.. =)..

today.. woke up at ard 8 plus.. decided to go sch to get my result slip.. haha.. so followed dad's car to sch.. i think i was the first on the 'pass' list to get the slip lor.. i reach sch ard 9 plus and the notification wrote tt i could only get the result by 9.30.. so i went and try.. haha.. i managed to scrape pass only la.. but at least i passed.. must study harder lor..
dad was kind to volunteer sendin me to ngee ann.. but i asked him to send me to bt panjang plaza instead.. got breakfast.. haha.. then set off to np.. and it's study time!!
studied at atrium wif jian wei and gene.. shannon join us a while later.. then.. had lunch at pizza hut.. haha.. student meal.. then went back to np to study again.. was joined by abbe..

actually.. im quite sian to type all this now but.. im endin.. ok.. gg for bowlin tml wif pae s06 ppl.. and my little bro.. haha.. then gg np again to study.. fri gg for canoe chalet!! wee~~ can disturb xiao wen liao.. ahaha.. xiao wen.. hopefully u'll see this.. muahaha.. cant wait to gossip wif u seniors.. the pjc canoeing 'lei' club.. wahaha..

wee~~


~sometimes it's not that things cannot be tried but there's a limit and a way which things can be done.. it's easier to be said sometimes than it's to be done..~

think im contradicting sometimes.. but this is life...

well well.. went shoppin on wed wif pat and cecilia.. was enjoyable..

went to sp to watch the finals of MMSP.. Mr and Ms Singapore Poly... went cuz lichong asked us to.. he's the lightman.. haha.. the winners.. congrats to them.. F5 and M5.. elly.. alot of supporters.. cute too.. the guy.. erm.. ok lor.. saw raynold in a suit.. haha.. too bad he cant join mmsp... if not we'll support him.. haha.. saw a few familiar faces there.. church frens and ex-sch mates.. the six of us who went.. out of 5 non-sp students.. haha.. only jian wei is.. the rest.. same ppl lor.. me, crystal, changhong, gene and shannon.. gene and changhong put together=fun..(funny).. hehe..

anyway we left before the show end.. went to al-almeen.. by the time we finished our dinner.. the results were not even out yet.. so heng we left early.. haha..sorry ah lichong..

on a lighter note.. it's CHRISTMAS EVE TODAY!!!!!
i wanna wish all a very blessed and merry christmas!! may all your dreams and wishes come true k.. and tt u'll enjoy this yr's christmas.. =)


~it's the season for thanksgiving and forgiving.. do something special this year that you'll never forget..~

ok.. im sleepless now.. haiz.. so come put something in blog.. today.. ermm.. i mean yesterday, went to town to watch movie initially.. pride and prejudice.. however.. we didn make it on time..haiz..

ended up chillin at heeren's nydc.. saw our frens passin by and it's kinda fun.. haha.. bit weird oso.. when we called someone on the street and being ignored.. damn malu..

yeah!! finally gg shoppin today later wif pat and cecilia.. will be goin somewhere else in mornin though.. haha.. had a terrible headache just now b4 i slept.. ate panadol extra and now.. cant slp.. dortz.. keep thinkin of wat would happen later this mornin..

anyway.. ONG HUI DONG!!! u nvr give me ur new add how to add u!!! alamak!!! haha..

kk.. go try to slp le..


~in life..there are times when we missed our opportunities or missed that important person in our life.. fret not.. observe the people around you too or you might missed out on them too..~

well.. weekend came and passed.. christmas is comin... hopin tt it'll be abit diff tis year but i doubt so ba.. dun huv the mood to blog.. but got nth to do..

still got two more weeks sch re-open le.. i huv alot of mix feelins.. haiz.. the xmas party at sfa was ok la.. instead of 10 songs.. we played only 4.. and got $20 for the performance too.. got to noe new people.. they're a rock band who got 5th at the school of rock tis yr... they're from the singapore children society.. a funny and interestin bunch of ppl..

tis yr.. i'll be playin at st joseph church for christmas eve mass.. for the past 2 yrs.. i've been at sfa.. now.. i think it'll be my last time playin the flute for a mass.. huv to return the flute soon and only if i huv a new one.. i could continue to serve mass.. anyway.. do drop by at st joseph church tis christmas eve for mass and u'll see me there.. haha..

it's been very long since i've received christmas present.. cant rmb when was the last time i got one.. haiz.. anyway.. as i've said.. hope tt tis yr will be diff..

on the 27th dec.. there'll be a RACE gatherin.. cant wait for it.. haha..it's sth which im lookin forward and it's oso a day b4 i get my postin result for my re-exams.. hope tt i'll huv a good result and it'll be my best christmas gift tis yr..

really very envy vincent cuz his 'As' are over.. yiya really shocked me yesterday.. well.. details.. come look for me lor.. huv been watchin alot of vcds and dvds tis few days and my eyes are really poppin out le.. like goldfish like tt.. ok.. take care everyone..

~express your feelings like you never did before.. do it as if there's no tomorrow..~

hmmm... went for pract last night at roy's place.. got 10 songs.. huv to sing a few.. haha.. 'oh no!' i heard alot of u sayin liao.. ok.. nvm.. finally got my pay!!

saw lynette and jia min at westmall kfc b4 gg towards eunos.. nette is still as funny and jia min looks quite the same la..

then. finally reached the office.. got my pay and i think everyone was there in office today.. kris, junior, abbe, hakeem, rass.. hmm.. met them some i think for first time bah.. some of them..thn.. took pay wait awhile.. was kinda chase out of the office.. thn..

went to geylang to eat!! haha.. me and my crazy suggestion.. which was supported by andrea.. hafiz was thinkin tt im crazy.. nth y go geylang.. haha.. went to eat beef horfun and had dou jiang you tiao.. it was not bad and filling lor.. especially the bean curd.. went home after tt and started online again..

tml will be the day for practicing for the xmas party again.. hmm.. hope it'll end early.. cuz abit sian.. only 3 of us playin.. me, roy and regina.. hopefully there are students of roy playin lor..

anyway.. think i go watch tv le.. bye..


~being happy is the best medicine..~

well.. nth much actually.. rotted at home yesterday after church.. was conductin a children choir.. ended up usin camp method to gather their focus.. watched the show 'full house romance' for whole day and well.. realised tt my eyelid got sth like pimple.. very pain..

today.. intended to rot till night actually but then was saved by abbe, drea, hafiz and ali as we went out for dinner.. very long nvr meet them up le so the feelin was great! crapped ard, caught attention from diners and showed them my smses.. they were oso shocked bout it.. hmm can i phrase it like this.. hmm..

anyway.. this *secret* isn't tt secretive anymore and im feelin more negative of it.. well.. if it doesn work out well.. hmm.. i'll just move on wif life lor.. if it works out.. i dun mind tryin la.. but then.. we'll see how lor.. just tt this holiday gettin more and more borin.. haiz..

hope to get pay on wed.. wif drea and hafiz.. hopefully la..

i think and feel tt im cursed for relationships.. i almost get into one everytime but then until now still huv not been into one.. haha! maybe it's because im not sure and dunno wat i really wan so i'll tend to be more wavy..

im really sorry to all those whom my actions or words might huv hurt them or changed them.. if there's anything i can repay or help.. pls come directly to me.. i really dun like to beat around the bush and will like to be more down to earth.. hmm..


~being down to earth might make things easier to be done but it'll also affect alot of people indirectly..~

haha! i really like this photo alot! i was still in canoein then.. and i really like my dark tans.. very cool lor.. this pic was taken durin teacher's day this yr.. cecilia, me and pat! hmm.. can give comments on the photo.. haha..

hmm.. many things happened the past few days for me.. i dunno how to explain la.. i think im really quite a practical person.. but thn i hate to go ard the bush oso.. so i feel tt sometimes my actions and words really hurt ppl even though i dun intend to..

on thur.. i just rotted the whole day at home.. nth much really..

yesterday.. went for aes SC workshop by RACE.. quite interestin la..conducted by abbe and jerie.. cuz i very long oso nvr attended course like tt... makes me think about how much i've changed since the past few yrs.. ever since i started out as a peer leader.. everything has certainly changed much and i've grown and learn from the past experiences..
after the workshop.. went to bugis to celebrate janice's belated bday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAN!!! ok.. it's over since.. hehe.. had dinner at pastamania.. thn we took neoprints and headed for home.. quite enjoyable la.. hee.. very long nvr go out wif them oso.. so quite funny oso.. haha.. shared wif them some secrets of mine.. hmm.. think i shared my secrets to quite many le.. haha.. but all my good frens so i guess it's ok..

maybe it's me ba.. i dun like things to be drag on and keep guessin wat will happen next.. i hate anticipating but ironically.. i like to think alot.. contradictin eh.. hehe.. still tryin to find out myself oso.. haha.. ok.. today got no plans.. so i think i'll rot at home... and start doin thinkings again.. hmm.. we'll see how and what i'll be thinkin of..


~everything happens for a reason..~

wee~~

re-exams are over!!woohoo!! haha! cant wait to go out play.. dun care about result le lor.. haha..

A big thank you to all who gave me well wishes b4 the exams.. and of cuz.. to zhao, wei teng, pat, cecilia and jin yan.. whom all came over to my house to tuition me.. they stayed till quite late and i feel quite guilty about it... if i dun do well.. i'll feel even more terrible.. but thks to them really loads..

after exams today.. went to aes for sec 1 camp plannin thn went back to cck again for bbq.. class de.. but thn only 5 turn up.. and one more s01 de mao sheng.. very wear out after the exams.. really exhausted lor..

anyway.. congrats to meng yean and irene for doin so well in canoein.. they're in singapore team.. and goin to kuala lumpur to compete in k2-500m.. heard tt irene's k1 timin is same as acjc geraldine le..pro.. hehe.. well.. really.. i wish them all the best.. for the canoein guys.. jia you and more jia yous..

~ cherish whatever you have now or you will regret at the moment you lose whatever you did not cherished before.. don't start regreting when it's too late..~

studyin for the past few days!! wah!! ok.. and oso catchin the news of SEA games.. very interestin.. anyway.. congrats to singapore canoein team as they huv a k2 500m female pair in the finals today.. dunno how's there result though.. waitin for updates at 9pm.. haha..

really thank you pat and cecilia so much for studyin wif me this two days.. haha.. revisin wif me my chem.. haha.. an extend to zhao jan teng and nurul too as they're comin over on mon to touch on math wif me.. i really dun wanna retain so i huv to do well.. really very happy for all these great frens whom answered to my pleas!! haha.. ok la.. u all oso get to do revision ma.. no loss.. heehee..

can get my pay on mon... but.. CANT go!!! need to study... ok.. i'll go after my exams.. sad.. money money come to me..

stuck at home tis two days so not many updates lor.. cant wait for exams to be over..

got a shockin news today.. well... didn believe it at first.. but then believed.. ok.. details.. *secret*.. heehee..



~do you believe in your dreams.. im not sure about myself.. ~

~we're not what we think we are.. how deeply do you know about yourself...~