well.. didn go kayaking yesterday.. plan was cancelled.. end up stayin at home for the whole day.. watched the soccer finals at night.. now very tired..

anyway, i got back my results for mid-yr.. it's very demoralising.. especially for my math.. i was expectin tt i could get at least a D or C.. i got F instead.. haiz.. i failed my bio chem and gp too.. i called my mom after sch and i half expected wat she was goin to tell me.. 'see la.. fail again.. how to tell ur father? i dunno ah..'... why cant my parents understand me.. it's not as if i nvr study at all.. when i was studyin.. they witnessed it.. and now after gettin the result.. they start puttin pressure on me even though they sae tt they are not.. i feel damn tired of it.. not because i nvr slp.. im just so exhausted by wat really is happenin.. im rather disappointed by my parents.. they sae one way but do another.. it's very heart-breaking for ur parents not supporting u.. i've been gettin alot of comments by ppl and all i need from my parents is comfort..not more demoralising comments..

i'll nvr be able to get across this msg to them.. nvr.. i've tried many times.. worst still.. i've already told them the result.. they'll also use financial means to threaten me to do things.. 'na li you tian li ah!'.. i dun wanna see the principal too.. it's seriously a waste of time.. it's just a meetin to confirm wat the sch already planned for me and i dun see a point of meetin her.. it's seriously just gettin a dressin down from her.. and me breakin down.. it's like common test saga all over again.. just tt this time no hockey for them to put at stake.. im just so tired of it la.. i've put in so much effort.. and i dun get to see the result.. wats worst.. the school's not seein any result=im not puttin in effort.. come on la teachers.. PLS WAKE UP UR IDEA if u guys are readin.. not gettin results doesn mean not puttin enough effort ok..

really sian.


~i don't want to see the principal..~