where to start..

thks for all those who helped me in this blog..
well.. ermm.. im not sure where to start.. so.. talk about today lor..
mornin.. i woke up at 7am.. suppose to go to sch by 8am for op rehersal..(ermm.. long story) however, it was only in the mornin i got to see clarence's msg tt he could not make it.. so..
cancelled.

could not go back to slp.. so i went online.. only few pathetic souls were online.. of cuz la.. early mornin 7am leh.. now holiday somemore.. think ppl so free meh.. had my breakfast.. and continued to surf friendster.

mummy came back from fetchin my big bro to sch and i had breakfast for the second time wif her..(tt's how i got my size..haha) i wanted to search for jobs initially and i got approval.. however, when my mom noe tt my re-exams are comin.. she forbided me.
thn, i thought of being a camp instructor, ermm.. one mth maybe a few camps.. dun need everyday work, but then.. of cuz, my parents were against it and started to bombard me with reasons and naggin starts..i noe i'll nvr be able to fight back.. im to filial piety to do so.. haha..so.. i started to cry lor..

thn.. more thoughts flow in and i cried even harder.. i seldom cry one leh.. but recently, my mood has really gone down.. not really me.. haiz..

i was told yesterday by mengyean tt we could go back canoein.. but tis thought really make me very confused.. i wan to go back.. but i've to think of the consequences.. i really had the thought of suicidin as i felt tt the things which im doin now.. i dun feel happy.. they're wat my parents wan.. not me.. i couldn do wat i wan..

so.. i started lookin at blogs and i started one myself even though i used to sae it was a hassle.. it was quite troublesome la.. but.. dun think i'll put everything down... if not ppl will sae i damn lorso.. hehe.. got the blog.. found the first skin and i had to leave to fetch my grandparents from cruise..

my two bros decided to act stupid and they drew a plank card and waited at the arrival waving tt piece of paper.. ok.. details quite stupid la.. after tt.. we had to squeeze 11 ppl into a honda odessey.. haha.. my aunt's family and us.. hehe.. ok..

thn.. came home.. and dashed to the comp.. found this skin.. but doesn really match my theme.. haha.. anyway.. think it's quite long le.. haha..byes!!